20/06/2026
Edit: i forgot to add, i been struggling to fight my demons sober so im using the youngsters version of adrenaline and roids to gain some sorta confidence, false or true in order to face this... hullabaloo. I just gotta face myself das all really. Been sliding it aside for far too long so better make it sorted now because if i try to do it a couple decades by now, it wouldve been for nothing or just too late to mean anything. Sure im drinking, possibly drunk right now but i know for fact that what im saying here, is the truth im taking.
Its time to move forward and help myself overcome myself. I must do it alone because only i can do so. All of you are genuinely good people, whomever tells you otherwise, do not take it from them.
But i know that i myself must face my actions and own them outright or my inner self is just going to be hiding away scared to face not the world, but themselves.
So take this from me, facing yourself is alot more terrifying than facing a 100 people wanting your head on a spike. It is easy to kill hatred from others, but it is nearly impossible to kill your own self hatred. So own yourself, who you are and what you are. Because if you dont, no one else will.
Update for the peoples, i been getting thru it, still cant look at myself in the mirror yet...
But uh, bottle of scotch with some coke and a couple ice cubes, i should be right.
Love my scotch whisky, cheap or expensive tastes the same to me. Only difference? How much standard drinks they be like hahahaha
